not too bad of a weekend :)

well, from my last post, this weekend has been pretty good =) i hung out a lot with my youth group. friday night i did some stuff at church. then saturday i went to work, and after work came home. it rained like ALL day! did some cleaning around the house, did a little reading. then i was supposed to go to a corn maze with my youth group but because of the rain, we decided to go play laser tag instead! =) it was so much fun! after laser tag, we went back to the church and had cupcake and hot chocolate for rikki's (ian's sister) birthday! it ended up in a giant chocolate icing fight. it was so much fun! haha

then today i went to church. came home. we finally winterized the pool. played some guitar hero 3 on the wii. and now i'm killing some time until youth group. haha i love my youth group! :] back to school tomorrow for another week!

and some good news on the ian front. not only is he still looking at rings, but i found out he will be leaving his deployment a month early. which means he'll be going back to germany in december instead of january! :] i can't wait to be able to talk to him again. only 7 more months until he comes home!

198 days and counting ♥

i can't keep up with this =(

i hate attempting to keep up with this thing. i have been SO beyond busy in the last couple weeks =( i have been babysitting my ass off, just trying to make money and try to save up for different things (including germany and my car insurance). it sucks. i have been working so hard, i barely have time for myself anymore. i'm physically and mentally exhausted but i can't stop doing what i'm doing, because i need the money...

today was the worst day i've had in a long time. i miss ian. i'm pretty sure everyone already knows that, but i just thought i'd put it out there. i miss him a lot. and i'm sick of people in my school. people who don't think before they talk, and don't really seem to care about the feelings of people around them. i'm tired of hearing people complain that they haven't seen their boyfriends for two days. i'm tired of hearing people complain that they didn't get to talk to their boyfriend last night. I'M SORRY - I DON'T FEEL BAD FOR YOU! i haven't seen my boyfriend in 10 months and i still have 7 to go, and i haven't talked to him in 2 weeks. i don't feel bad for you. try and walk in my shoes, and maybe i'll care a little.

people just don't think. people made me so mad today that i was on the verge of tears all day. i'm so sick of this. i hate it. i'm apparently not aloud to have bad days. i always have to be up-beat, but sometimes, i just have these days.

i'm just ready for it to be may. i want him home. so maybe that all of this will get a little better. but for right now, i have my two "guardian angels" who are helping me along the way, and i thank them.

i still have a very full week ahead of me...this sucks =(

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separation sucks =(

last night was such a bad night for me. actually, all day was bad for me! i miss ian so much and i'm really just ready for this whole separation to just be over! it has been 9.5 months already - and i still have 7 months to go. and i don't want to sound like i'm whining, because normally i wouldn't write anything about this at all. :( i just miss him so much. i wish i could talk to him more or see his face. sometimes i just lay in bed and just try to remember what its like to have him laying there next to me...

i know, sad...right? but sometimes thats all i can do.

well i have off from school today, so i'm hanging out for a little then i'm going over to becca's house to watch some SUPERBAD! haha and play a little guitar hero. maybe lock conner in a closet :]

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exhausted!

haha wow. i am completely exhausted from work. i know that i made this on like tuesday or wednesday, but since then, i really haven't had time to post anything! haha :) but i'll do a little catch up now!

THURSDAY - so yeah, i went to school. had a pretty crappy day. nothing wanted to go my way. ughh. went to school and work. and then me and my sister went to the guy's soccer game at school. i was only there for like 15 minutes, and it made me miss soccer so much! haha but then i went to hummels (line dancing) and that was actually kind of boring because no one was there - and my dance partner wasn't there. ughh. lol

 

FRiDAY - went to school and work again. nothing too exciting happened again. lol then i came home and hung out for a little bit. then picked my friend becca up and we hung out for a little. went out with my parents and played some pool and stuff. then had PIZZA HUT!! :) haha watched some superbad :) and then went to bed around 1 am. haha

TODAY - woke up around 7. had to work at 8. dropped becca off at home then went to work. today was the first day of buck in archery season, so i spent most of this morning skinning deer and stuff. haha now i'm home, not doing anything. i have to babysit later tonight. in about 2 1/2 hours. as for right now - i'm just gonna hang out for a little.

i miss and love ian hewston! [215]

here's my first post

well, since everyone of us on the SB has one of these, I figured I would make one too. There is really nothing much going on here. I know, not very exciting. haha just finished homecoming week, so that is a huge weight off of my shoulders. Next project = graduation! haha i guess thats what i get for being class president! haha :)

well i guess thats about it for now.

love you all!

[218 days to go!]